Autumn with an eating disorder

As some of you may know, this time of the year is all exciting and bubbly, but however, if you are suffering from an eating disorder or recovering from it, autumn and everyday life could seem pretty scary as well. Students are going back to school, some people are getting back to work etc. And then there are those hobbies as well.

What if you need to wind down a bit and get some time to yourself? To heal and clear your head. In this case, autumn and those everyday routines are maybe not that tempting. I have been there as well. I worked out few years because my anorexia told me to, not because I enjoyed it. Well, of course, I love to exercise, I have always loved to, but with an eating disorder, it gets that new form which is not healthy and making any joy. It is a continuous comparison between my body and others’. Even though I looked good but not in my head. And that’s the point.

It’s all in my head. So that’s why I needed to take a break from exercise. And it has been working really well. I have found lots of new things in my life and also learned that nothing bad happens whether you go to the gym or not. Above all, I have found some new hobbies as well. So ’skipping’ that work out is not dangerous. Not at all. It opens up so many new chances to you.

Actually, bad things do happen, if you work out because your eating disorder tells you to. It is not you and does not want any good for you. Even if it promises. So keep up your recovery and be you. Do what you want to do. You only live once and you don’t want to be the one to be told what to do with your life. You want free, mysterious and beautiful life. You deserve it. As because you are valuable, beautiful and amazing.

As they say, the best view comes after the hardest climb. That’s just how it is.

Big hugs and kisses xxx.

Ps. The next post is all about things you can do when you aren’t able to exercise. Let’s find something new and cool to do!

Photos in collage: We Heart It.